i like partys. i like fun. i want to live in a hamburger bun.

 dont you love it when your tan is your arms,back and face and no where else ? awesome paddlers tan. also : my tan is in the shape of my lifejacket. FAIL.growing up is fun. usually.

sorry anyways.. summer has been mad awesome. slash just august, crazy good.

next year i'm going away for the whole summer.. tres excitemont mais amie.

ON YOUR WHOLE BERTHA JIM  GEORGINA WHATNOT BUIS :

thats just stupid. if someone is willing to ruin a friendship over something like clothing, then they aren't the type of person you should be willing to count as one of your top friends.

and i know, trust me, i know it hurts to lose friends. like alot. i lost my best friend this summer as well, remember that. i realise mine had it coming and yours was out of the blue.. but it still really hurt. 

you could move past that moment in history with this person ? forgive them ? but is it worth it.. for them to think your a different person because of your clothing? .. why is that such a big deal anyways if we all judged eachother ( in the group ) on the way we dressed... it would make no sense. 

you'd think i was absolutly bonkers..

tonya was rich

**** is blind

etc etc

but thats not the way it is. because friendship is about the fucking person. not the clothing. jesus fucking christ thats gay.

its just making me angry thinking about it.

because, i know that i love you because of you shawn, and not because of your leggings or whatnot. anyways we're on the phone so we'll talk here.

loveee youu !!!

buddha moments like these keep my world turning..

I've been thinking. i mean really thinking.

and i don't know how else to express myself than with a keyboard, i can't use a pen because my hand starts to hurt and i can't use my mouth because there's no point. 

so i'm settling for this.

I think life is like a paved sidewalk, people work so hard to pave over things and make them seem easy, and to make it easier than taking a bumpy dirt road.. but there's always ditch's and footprints and trash that gets in the way. and sometimes its easier to fall then to watch where your going. But when you fall on pavement, you fall much harder than you would on a dirt road.

pavement is like rock. and that hurts.alot.

you cross path's and you make path's, but in the end it's not about wether you stumbled or fell, in the end it's where you came from and the great journey to a point when you can look back and know you've lived your life.

Its hard to put what i am thinking in words right now because so much is happening in my head that i can't seem to find peace, a moment to put everything together in a string and tie it in a bow.

I just think that Tonya's mum can hate me if she wants. i don't know what i did to deserve her hate, but i have it. I could hate her back, she's done many things to me that could justify my hate for her.. but life is more than that. and it's really not worth it. 

she doesen't have to accept me.

but i accept her.

people are people and they make mistakes, they stumble on the paths they create and they bump into other people going the same way, but in my opinion stumbling,tripping and mistakes shouldent make hatred arise.and i mean sure, it hurts. but really. build yourself a bridge and get over it.

it's much easier to see it as it is in a bigger picture than it is to have it all over your face.

people may scare you, bump you,push you but in the end its about how you handled it. your not going to remember how someone said this or someone did that, your going to remember what a good person you were or tried to be. so go out into the world and be the person you imagin yourself to be, show the world your not scared of obsticles, get in your car and fucking drive.

you may miss people you may hurt and cry but what the fuck. its life. and it happens. don't live too much in the past, and always give friends chances. because a friendship with limited chances is hardly a friendship at all. PEOPLE TRIP. PEOPLE STUMBLE. BUT PEOPLE CAN CATCH THEMSELVES.  don't wait for someone to do everything for you, because in the end you'll have nothing. god damnit don't pretend like you don't know what's going down here.

dkjghdjkgbdjgbdbgdjgbd 

i might just be talking nonsense. but its my nonsense. and i sorta kinda like it.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala..

shitty monday.

Just being more attractive than you, as per usual.

AND WHY ARE SO MANY OF MY FISH DYING ?!

tres sad.

i held my hair up to see what it would look like if it was short.

and from what you can see, it may not be such a bright idea.

DAMN.

i went for a nice motorcycle ride today. i llooooove it.

Vanessa and I are making plans, we're hanging on wednesday and i believe there is a sleepover in the making for tonight.

HUZAH.

i shall talk to you later my dear fwends.

super cool shotout : OH HEEEEEY THAR KARINA. SUB SUB SUB SUB SUB SUB .

THAAAAANKS 

XOX

SO LIKE YEAH

WE HAVE HAD SOME CASUALTYS  : one of my fish died. RIP.

ps. my boomerang won't come back.

MMMMM

at karina's house. her puppy is sleeeeepppinnng. adorable.

mum is picking me up right now.. hmmmm

listening to thomas newman and ultimatly feeling depressed ahahahahaha. not actually.

okay... arent these pictures just tres amazing ? YEAH I THOUGHT SO!!!!  ( errr... )

yeah ... pewp.

BYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEE

end of scene.

AHA! HA! HA!

mr.wallace.

/thread.

summer ?

it may be suuuuper hot in my room ( and,like everywhere else in toronto... )  but it doesen't really feel like summer. July is always so boring for me. its just like, a month long of anticipation for camp. ( attractive pictures, i knowww )

my room is a MESSSSSS. and i started a collage on my wall. my dad made me use sticky tack instead of tape. and sticky tack SUUUCKS. i hate it. went to the cottage this weekend. was tres awesome. mmmm.. yeah pretty much. i want to brush my teeth. tra lalalalalalala.

i smell like smoke. i smoked a salmon. so i smell like a campfire.

yeeeeeeeah... weird.

i really need to clean my room. SO MUCH WORK THOUGH. GODDAMNIT.

and onto other things...

things on the mackenzieverse are pretty alright right now. i plan on buying books tomorrow, hanging out with some loooser named karina ( love you ) and smiling alot.

so good plan ? I THINK SO.

other friends ? yeah. they suck ALOT.

mmmmmmmmmm can't wait until august.

and weirdly enough.. i can't wait until september. 

I KNOW THATS SO WRONG.

but july is so boring i am actually looking forward to hitler youth. and by hitler youth, i mean school.

OKAAAAAAAAAAY GOODBYEEEEEEE.

ps. my left leg is all tingly.