rawr

No.

i dont dye my hair.

thank you.

holla holla holla.

totally missing cottage already.

Christmas was the tits.

an awkward moment.

i farted in front of one of my guy friends today.

i didn't know what to do so i just laughed for like 10 mins straight while he stared at me in a complete " i dont know what to do right now " look ,then i ran downstairs ashamed.

Oh........

i guess just another awkward day in my shoes....

Bitch from hell.

sup pretty lady ?

ALSO : 

my mother should be put in a straight jacket.

present exchange

notice the excitement ? yes. i wasnt kidding.
okay. okay. okay.

I AM SO EXCITED !

me and my friend tonya are going to exchange presents today.

i got her this bag with 5 different products from st.ives , a poster, chocolates & a drawing.

i hope she likes it.

im just about to get ready to go to her place.

ALSO: the brother is home. [ spencer ] home from university for christmas break, how nice! i love spending time with him.

tour de france.

mischevious mac is on the job!

....holy shit i am so lame.
last year i got a mac and recently my dad has been taking away my keyboard and mouse as a punishment.

2 days ago i went and stole his keyboard and mouse to use for my computer. 

so now, he doesent have a keyboard or mouse.

he cant bring mine out cause he knows i'll take it.

so now his computer has been on forever and probobly has a million virus's.

HA.

revenge is sweet sire.

.... even though he will kill me soon enough

sweater vest.

awkward moments.

i live for them.

Plad.

Awesome.
last weekend my parents went out christmas shopping and somehow i got to tag along. seeing as they couldent get me anything for christmas since i was there, some how i managed to get stuff for that night [ yes, i realise that makes no sense at all.. ]

i got new bed linen. i realise its not very interesting, but i was so happy. going to bed in a clean bed= AWESOME.

its plad. and i love it.

so today my tutor came over to help me with making christmas presents for the family [ i know.. hes my tutor, but hes more like a friend ]

im making these picture-things [ honestly i cant remember what they are called ]

and he bought all the frames,cardboard and he brought a camera.

also, he brings me breakfast every morning he comes.

and when i was sitting there like :0 & feeling terrible cause he paid for all of this. he pulls out a book and is like " merry christmas" and hands me a book on how to draw manga.

wow.

dont quite know what else to say about that. just wow. is all i can think about. and.. i kind of feel terrible about it ! ah !

anyways.

so ive been sitting here drawing manga listening to my ipod for the past couple hours.

all in a days work for the girl looking for a school ! ( yes. im currently not in a school )

EDIT * i spelt plaid wrong. don't worry about it....

PISSED.

this is how i feel at the moment.

i am so pissed right now. i dont even know what to do !

my brother is completly out of line.

today when he asked me for some help cleaning up ( rudely, i might add )

i said no, because i was watching T.V and i didnt want to help someone who was being so rude.

so my brother, who is 20 years old and insanely immature and anoying says " kay well i'll just put all your stuff into a garbage bag" im like " okay, thanks reid" thinking, oh he'll put my stuff in a garbage bag and then i can put all my stuff away in my room. nice, right ?

NOT WHAT HAPPENED.

its bedtime here and i couldent find the pajama's i bought yesterday, then i remembered they were in the bathroom and that he must of put them in the bag, so i said "reid, wheres the clothing that was in the bathroom ? " and he says " in the garbage" i said " no.. you wouldent do that, where are they really" and he was like ".. garbage".

i was like FUCK YOU.

so i went to the garbage and inside was my 200 $ skii jacket and a bunch of other really expensive things as well as a shirt i bought yesterday and havent even worn yet.

i pull everything out. and then i smell this horrible smell coming from the carbage can.

i look in and there, at the bottom is a thick nasty garbage goo. you know that stuff after stuff slips out of the bottom of the garbage bag and makes this descusting wrotting food stew.

and then i realise ITS ALL OVER ALL OF MY STUFF.

so everything is pretty much descusting and i dont even want to touch it.

he broke my new sunglasses as well by shoving them in there.

i odnt know what to do about this house, i am scared i might have one of those so-mad-you-dont-know-what-you-just-did moments and kill someone.

Plus, my parents do nothing to help with anything. no matter what i do. its retarded how blind they must be to not see what is going on, how much hate and tention there is between this family is just sad.

i dont know why my brother always has to be so immature and mean to me.

especially anoying, he goes out of his way to be anoying to me and my mom and my dad cant even see it. i cant wait until reid moves out and there is finally peace in this broken family.

maybe him not being here for christmas will be a good thing.

* edit

I put on some laundry about 5 minutes ago and reid comes down, pulls everything out and throws it on the floor and gos back upstairs.

WHAT THE HELL WAS THE POINT OF THAT. !?

now, my dads clothing is covered in dog piss, because it just so happens my dog pee'd on the floor.

not only that but some of that stuff was mine ( since i had to clean the garbage goo off my clothing ).

i'm going upstairs to see what other damage he has bestowed upon my work & belongings.

dont you just hate when siblings act like this ??

i wish everyone would just get along

he's 20, im 15, why do i have to act like the grown up ?

model

being a model.
not so glamerous as it sounds, trust me.
this isnt one of the best shots of the day. i just thought it was hilarious.
the fact they would use this one.
i dont know whats going on with my arms.
HA.

* edit *

so on facebook, i got an honesty box message saying 

" you are so ugly there is no way you are a model, everyone thinks you took those pictures yourself and put the name on it. you are so ugly. how can i call you my friend ??"

this. makes me laugh. so much. the fact that someone would take there time to say that to me. and they are obviously not one of my friends, probobly just someone i know, none of my friends would say that.

even if they did.

i would still laugh.

on my mind.

this is me during christmas when i was like 6. OH by the way im 15. well, basically 16 now.

i know i am suppose to be all " this is my blog blah blah blah "

but no. im not gonna do that. im just gonna get right into whatever is on my mind.

there's construction going on at the back of my house [ we're getting an edition- YAY ! ]

which is good because new kitchen + more space = excellent.

buuut since christmas is coming up, its not so great.

dont get me wrong, i LOVE christmas, with a passion.

but since theres all this contruction and my brother Reid [ yes. cool name. not. ] is leaving for alberta to see his girlfriend ON CHRISTMAS.

our plan was to go to the cottage & spend time skiing and whatnot with the whole family. but since he's leaving on christmas we cant go. so we're going to be.. in a house with no floor. we dont get a tree and im pretty sure no present either.

its kind of depressing.

I hope we can make it up there somehow.

this year i asked for :

- JVC camcorder ( yes. i realise i wont get it )

- trip to england ( again, i know i wont get that either )

- clothing ( awesome )

basically thats it.

but i realise i wont get any of it. but im alright with that.

AWESOME SAUCE.

I'm out.

wander around this house with nothing to do ! oh isnt that fun ? I THOUGHT SO.