WTF

i found this on my computer.

wtf ??

thoughts..

i just got back from my cottage.

it was a pretty good weekend, actually.

although. very confusing.

here's basically what went down : so it's me, my two brothers ( ashley and reid) and ashley's friend sookie & reid's best friend Ben.

so like. i'm just a tad in love with Ben.. No Big. 

every night he and i would stay up mad late and talk about absolutly nothing.

the first night i fell asleep at 8' on his lap.. to be woken up like 30 minutes later cause he had to pee. HA.

the next night we only stayed up till like 4' 

but laaaaaast night he was mad flirting with me. i was all :\ :D

it was amazing.

at one point i was leaning on his legs and he's all " do you really want to snuggle" and i'm all " YEAH" and he's all " then come share my seat with me " .. i didn't answer cause the chair he was sitting on would NOT fit both of us. and then he was all " fine, lie on my legs then" so i moved onto the armrest and was like " this is so much comphier.." and he was like " no its not...you can move back if you want"

:D

basically. other cute flirtations happened as well. but i'm not going to write an essay.

we went off hiking into the woods cause people wanted to shoot reid's gun's. so i went with.

i was so cold that when i finally got back to the cottage i was like in tears.

it was so painful.

its kind of awkward right now cause i am listening to some fucking awesome music & i was singing along ( aka, like yelling the lyrics ) and i realised that all the workers can hear me downstairs.

i'm such a tool.

whateva whateva i do what i want. [ please say you know where that quote is from..]

ALSO : my "U" on my key board is REALLY hard to press down, it takes mad effort.

aweee yeeeaaa.

i don't really know what else to say.

GETTING HAIR CUT TOMORROW.

aaaaaaand school starts feb 2nd. AAAAAAAHHHHHHH !!

i keep laughing at bon qui qui [ i love mad tv ]

kay.

need to have a shower and think more about ben.

... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee BEN ! <3 

PS - YAAAAAYYY OBAMA !!!!!!!!!

p.p.s- weird things happened at the cottage, i'd be like " i wish this would happen..." and then it would... :S

Hmmmmmm.....

I had to.

eeeee omg that picture is SO cuuute. my very awesome ballet picture from when i was,like,5. aahahha . awwee yeeeee : P
Alot has happened since the last post.

really.

1. that guy i was telling you about before ( his name is chris ) asked me out. and i was kind of uncertain. when i thought about it, i knew it wasnt going to be something good. so i said no. then he started acting weird. and bitter. and i was like friends, right ? and well, he's a total girl, in truth he was all " lets be aquentiences, we were never really friends, we didn't fit well together" i'm sitting here wondering  if we didnt fit well together why the hell would you ask me out. you know after you get rejected and then your all like " yeah, i wouldent have REALLY gone out with you anyways... i never really liked you" that was him. i just stopped paying attention to him after a while because he just went on and on about how he wouldent have gone out with me and how he regrets asking me out because i am awkward and how i'm too dramatic, meanwhile he's sitting there writing me an essay trying to make me feel like crap. and i'm just on the receiving end, literally laughing. it was really pathetic.

then i notice he has't written anything in a while so i look at the last thing he said it's " way to not respond" so i say " i dont know what to say " and, just take a look at what this casa nova had to say,

chris- kaaaay

chris- well i'm tired of your shallow antics and dramatic rants!

chris- i bid you goodnight

chris- lawl

i like how he's talking about a dramatic rant while HE gives ME one.

i realise, i am doing one right now.

but i feel the need to write it out. 

so you'll just deal.

its also just a little bit weird cause i hung out with him like.. a couple hours ago ( from when this convo took place ) so yeah. kind of weird.

but to be honest. none of that stuff hurt me.

just goes to show that Wayne is my only true guy friend, and i really dont need anyone else but him <3 

KAY well i'm maaaaaad tired. and i can just imagin the look on my mums face if she knew i were still on.

ahahah rebel.

KAY NIGHT <3

ps. eeeeeeeeeeeeee ballet !

eeeeeeeeeeee

so. i told you before i'm doing ballet and LOVING it.

well. today my mum was all " i haz sum guud newz guurl" [ kay. she didn't say it like that, but i have a good imagination] 

ESSENTIALLY: i am doing ballet twice a week now.

FUCK YE.

kay well i haz to roll on out, cleaning and organizing brothers room that i trashed.

ahahahah.

oh. south park <3 

Ballet.

so i 'm doing ballet.

and i really love it.

like. LOVE IT.

i don't really have any pictures of me doing any ballet ( except for one from when i was 5 )

and i would take a picture with my computer.

but my brother and his friend ( ben ) are standing in the hallway and it would be maaad awkward if they just came in to find me doing something like that.

i'm really excited for tonight because me and my mum are going to rent ballet shoes, i've already seen it, but i really liked it. so i thought i'd show her it too.

in other news: this guy, that i KIND of like, i don't really know. is interested in me and was all "let's hangout... alone" 

i don't know if i should be happy,or scared.

whenever i'm around him i feel like i'm going to puke.

you know.

like in south park with stan and wendy.

...except i never actually vomit...

i get the fuck outta there.

changes.

so my room is being redone.

this is a picture of my friend tonya posing dramatically with the ghettoness of the current state of my room.

yeah.

kind of depressing to see it like this at the moment. but hey ! it'll be even better than it was before in no time ( uuh, atleast i hope it wont take too long !)

i have to sleep on the floor of my parents dressing room. not so great.

also, i am starting at a new school on feb.2nd it sucks cause we have to wear uniforms. iiick.

not only will i be taking the usual 4 credits, i also will be doing night school twice a week. honestly. i am going to have NO time. just work work work! but it'll be worth it!!

im also getting a haircut on the 27th. im kind of excited.

[back to the uniform thing] not only do i have to wear a shitty uniform, they are MAD exspensive, 70 $$ for a kilt. JUST ONE KILT. 20$ for a tie.

SERIOUSLY.

okay. so tie isnt so exspensive but when i think of school merchandise i think 10 $, tops. who the hell wants to spend alot of money on school clothing? i sure as hell dont.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i was at tonya's house today and i (finally) saw eagle eye. very impressed. not what i thought it was going to be.

anyways. time for bed !

scoop de doop.

your the boss, applesauce.
i always think i will make a really good post sometime soon but everytime i actually get around to posting something i'm all Naaaaaaaaaw.

i feel that way now.

fuck.

Aight.

ITS CURLY.

HA.

lets be friends.

its all the same.

Adriana And I Ballin it uuup in our coolest outfits evaaa. [ to be honest, this was for our science project ]

i will never stop playing dress up.

plans

going to start ballet soon.

ahahaha. me doing ballet. hilarious.

also, singing lessons. 

ive always wanted to be a singer.

i'm going to be doing lessons with Elaine Overholt.

or atleast, thats the plan at the moment.