it's a nice day

eeeee KITTY CAT LAMP. ;D

i hate having my computer in our "living room" its so awkward. there's almost always atleast 3 people in the same room. so you feel like everyone is reading whatever your typing. weird.

my stomach hurts right now. and i dont know why. perhaps from dissapointment ?

DISSAPOINTING THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TODAY:

- i thought 'the latest buzz' was going to be on at 8 : 30... i was wrong.

- i saw B.L but i was wearing my kilt AND FELT SO UGLY so i shoved my face into a math text book for 5 minutes and when asked what i was doing, i replied " i really like this book"

- i put on a rad outfit and makeup waiting for him and reid to return for dinner. they havent returned.

- my tutor found out who i like and wont stop teasing me.

- i made a joke to some gangsters. Don't ever do that. really. they have no humor.

this is how it went down.

( G's walk up to me offering ciggarettes)

G: do you smoke ?

M: only if i'm on fire

G: =| ( walks away )

mad awkward.

anyways. onto.. other things..

i can kind of hear the elevator from my suite. so i sit here and i'm all :D whenever i hear it being used. 

i'm a fag. i know.

i painted my left hand's nail's purple. it looks terrible. so i didnt do the right hand.

i have no nail polish remover.

...ye

i think i may puke ?

my vest is on WAY to tight and its putting pressure on one of my nerves in my neck, giving me a migrain and the sense of puking.

... but i dont want to take it off incase he comes back

i hate house plants.

i like roses.

hm.....

yepp my head hurts.

bleh.

okay i loosened the top button if he comes back i can just do it up.

soo... i dont know why i am writing this ??

i feel like such a dick right now...

GOOD NOTE :

i DID do the hussle today.

and a shitty slut dance in my room.

OH and some ballet.

YAY BALLET !

i have ballet tomorrow...

y..yeah.

i'm going to pass out soon. and it's not even 9'

THATS JUST PATHETIC.

but... i do have to get up at 7 : 30 everyday.

its so exausting.

i want to sleep.

but... noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooononononononononononononononononononononononononono!!!!

if there is any hope that he is coming back yar i am going to wait up.

blah.

COME THE FUCK BACK.

i guess that's it for now.

... i really hate having my computer in this room